Fog
I haven't blogged here in ages. I guess now that I'm back home, life is sadly just not quite as interesting as it used to be. I've been going to school and that's pretty much it. I see Tabi now and again, but really, that's it. I'm heading off on Vacation in a week. A cruise then back to my beloved Disney World for nearly two weeks. My excitement cannot be contained. It feels wierd to be going back there, especially as a guest. I want more than anything to just go back and work at Coaster again.I miss the summer alot. I miss my friends, I miss my job, hell I even miss my apartment. This summer was perfect with about a bajillion imperfections. There are things I wish I could go back and change, but I'm fine with the way things turned out. I made some amazing friends and had the time of life. It's just moving on from all that which seems to be the problem. I keep focusing on my ache to go back, so much so that it's hard to move forward with anything else.
One year ago tomorrow I found out I was hired by Disney. It was an amazing feeling. After two weeks of being so worried I was going to be rejected, completely convinced of it actually. Then that day I called and called until I finally got through. It took hours, but when she said I had the job, I could barely contain my excitement. It was, unbelievable. Few moments can live up to that one...such as when I found out I'd be working at Rockin Roller Coaster, or when I met the Moffatts for the first time, or when I saw the Backstreet Boys from 3rd row...twice, or when I saw the first Harry Potter movie. That uncontainable excitement that makes the entire world look rosy and pink. I want that feeling again. I can feel it brimming inside, waiting to come out when the time is right. Seeing Jimmy and Ryan and Joey and Matt and everyone else again in just a few weeks is making it come back. I have a feeling I won't really feel it again until I find out if I'm going back to Disney again, if that happens...or of course, if John Mayer comes knocking on my front door.
I've got a life to live, I just need to figure out how I'm going to do it. Emerge from my Disney fog, or get sucked back in. It all depends on when I know for sure...and I have no idea when or if that will happen.
This is the end for me, I'll try and update more often, on the off side chance anyone happens to be reading anymore.
Brynna